You know what
My friend is back.
I have this love-hate relationship with her.
She'd always mock me
She'd always insult me
She'd find every single way to put me down.
And yet, I still like her.
Whenever I see a shirt or a dress I like, she'd insult my body and tell me how ugly I look in it.
Whenever I want to eat something fattening, she'd tell me how fat i already am and how I'd be uglier after I ate that.
Whenever I think I have a chance to be friends with so and so, she'd tell me they're only friends with me because they pity me, they want to make fun of me or they'll just leave me like everybody else except her.
The funny thing is, I believe every single thing she says.
She is the only one that stayed with me through everything. She stayed with me through my first break up with the guy who had liked me for 3 years. She stayed with me throughout my tough times in my previous school. She stayed with me whenever I'm alone but somehow i still wished she'd go away and leave me alone. But, I'm the one who is making her stay. Sometimes when she is away, I'd feel free and all but whenever I'm alone I'll start to think of her and I'd make her come back instantly.
My life is always grey without her but with her, my day is completely and utterly pitch black.
I introduce you to my friend, the friend who had left me for about a month but came back today - depression. And I don't think she's leaving me tonight.
